User blog:Sweet Gem/I just have to write this...

I just have to write this. Wether people ses it or not.

So, something about me is that I compare myself to others a lot. It's somehting that drags me down and I often have to pull myself back up with all my strength before I get too deep.

t's like there's this devil that's constantly on my shoulder, whispering condescending things. I hate it.

You will never be as good as her.

He will always be a better athlete than you.

You will never reach her level.

You can't draw crap.

You are worthless.

You

are

nothing...

It pounds inside my head, defeaning all the other thoughts and I often try to block it off. Sometimes it works, sometimes I cry.

I am not asking for sympathy. I'm here to tell a story. I have a friend who is very dear to me. She had a big devil constantly sitting on her shoulder.

It got so bad that at one point... she almost took her own life. I cried. She is fine and getting the help she needs, but that still scared me. Please... tell people. Reach out. Yes if you keep pulling yourself you get stronger, but think of other people as trainers. They help you get stronger, faster.

Please reach out. It might not be to me, but please. I've been holding back this story for a long time now. I don't ask for your sympathy, I just ask that you be there for others, that you might reach out to the others that are there for you. I hope I cna save someone. I don't want to listen to the devil anymore... Maybe I should get help. Maybe I should ask for help. But I don't think so. I'm not too deep. I don't want to go that deep. I odn't need help yet, and I won't anytime soon.

But I know others do. I want to be there for others. I want to cry with them, I want to laugh with them, I want to make them laugh.

I am there

Others are there.

Reach out.

Help others.

Help eachother.