All you gotta do is Live, love, lie-- and did I forget lie?

Intro
Hi I'm PPermelia!

I'm starting a series to celebrate my return from hiatus.. yeah, hi.. it's been awhile! And if you knew me here's an extra greeting!:

Hello, It's good to see you again!

It's gonna be a series but it won't be that good... like... it'll be weird but I hope you like it and sorry for being so salty.

Enjoy~

(Please don't edit without permission!--Thanks!)

1: prologue
Beau was fiddling around with his loose claw, the moonlight shone in from the open window and a cold breeze blew in, causing him to shake. He sighed deeply and began to tap his paw on the desk, creating a small sound. He wished something would happen, boredom overcame him and it felt as if it held him in a choke-hold. He laid his head on the table. He tapped his claw on the table thrice, only to be surrounded by an uncanny silence when he stopped. The wind howled outside as he closed his eyes and groaned, he began to hear more tapping.

"Beau." A smooth voice spoke "Beau where are you?"

He jerked up, his heart dropped due to the voice being familiar. He began to breath heavily, feelings of guilt penetrated his heart as he stumbled back from his chair, he wrapped his tail around the leg of it before scrambling to the door and trying to get it open, he could hear footsteps behind him. He was heaving once breath after another, regret was weighing him down along with fear, he wanted to scream in frustration but he couldn't muster a word, it seemed as if he were paralyzed, he could no longer move, a warm breeze caressed his face before his eyes froze.

A dark shadow leaned over him, a red glow came from the open closed. He tried to close his eyes which immediately became dry, nausea and exhaustion tucked itself over him like a heavy quilt along with a strange euphoria. The presence felt so familiar, he grinned and felt drawn to it. He no loner had control over his limbs which seemed to pull themselves up, slowly dragging themselves towards the light.

"BEAU!" A voice shouted desperately from behind him, the heat soon fell cold as he put a paw on the door. "Beau no!"

A dirty grin was pasted across Beau's face which was now devoid of any other emotion, he suddenly felt dread yet the smile seemed to be taped on. He slowly looked into the light, which was blinding, he could hear animals weeping from the inside which began to swirl, he heard his own voice which was charming and flirtatious. He could hear laughing emerging from the light, it got closer.

And closer.

And soon it was so close, Beau's mind was clouded.

2: Daily life
''"If you lie too much, that will eventually make itself your truth." ''

Beau slowly awoke, he was a silver Snow leopard with no spots. He stretched, messing up the sheets. The birds chirped from outside the window and the morning sun shone in, Beau slipped off the bed and made his way over to the door, he opened it and walked out, he went downstairs and began to make himself instant ramen. He whistled as he sat down on the couch and waited for it to steep, he was quite impatient. He despised having to wait this long for his noodles to steep, he sighed deeply, flipping through channels on the television.

Beau had not a lot of money and it was something he needed, his paws were a bit big for the remote, which frustrated him. His parents were dirt poor, unable to afford shoes and a flooring for their house and had succumbed to illness and had suffered with homelessness while Beau was young. Beau sighed deeply, his green eyes wondered across the screen before the timer went off, he was overjoyed, this was his reward for pulling himself out of bed. He took it and sat down, he began to eat.

What he was missing was tea, he sighed deeply and slapped the cup onto the table, standing up and heading over to the shelf which he sloppily placed his tea in and now, it was empty. He sighed deeply, he dreaded going to the store because he hated being around other Jammers. He figured it would all be alright due to him being a young adult. He got dressed and made his way out, leaving his ramen on the table. He walked over to his car and started it, it was more than ten years old and in need of repairs, his tag was almost due.

He felt no interest in taking care of himself or doing anything at all, he simply lacked it. He slowly backed out of the parking lot, he drove off to the store. As soon as he got there he parked near the front, someone had taken up two parking spots which got on his nerves. He made his way inside, tons of Jammers were there, his heart dropped, overwhelmed by the numbers. He sighed deeply and began to observe them and soon emulated their happy expressions and searched for any signs of weakness.

He whistled as he grabbed a basket and headed over to the aisle which had tea in it, he slid a few packs off the shelf and headed over to the register, he put a rush on it. He made his way over to the cashier and put the packs on the table, cutting in front of a father and his child which was licking on a lollipop which was unpaid for. An elderly flamingo left with her groceries, Beau made his way up. He felt as if he were above everyone, he felt that he was on a pedestal. He placed to bags down enthusiastically and popped open his wallet.

He put on a grin, hoping to make the cashier feel more comfortable around him. "Beau you came yesterday at the same time.. how many packs of tea does your unemployed-butt need before you go bankrupt?" The cashier groaned snappily, Beau sighed deeply and searched his wallet, only to find that it was empty."Are you gonna pay or what?"

"Wallets empty." Beau stated calmly, he looked up at the cashier, she looked pretty much sick of her life. "I know it's been the same thing every year for you.. but uhh... I was asking if you wanted to... go out with me?"

"Beau you rejected me three times last year-"

"You're so beautiful Celine..." He cooed before kissing her cheek, her cheeks were a bit blushed before he pulled away "Now I'm in need of money and I-I was wondering if you could.. get some for me."

"Beau.. I can't"

"My... my mother's paycheck was just cut off." He stated sadly "I've been trying to find a job but it's been so difficult.."

Celine sighed deeply and reached her small fox paw into her wallet and handed him some cash, he payed for it and took the bags and left, now feeling somewhat accomplished before it was swept away by complete disinterest for the world around him, he constantly felt disconnected with it. He hopped into his car and drove back home, he made his tea and finally got to sit down and eat his cold ramen. He watched television before it was night, he did the same thing for each meal, cup ramen and tea.

Soon the stars and moon came up, the light had faded away and it began to get cool. The ventilation system in his house was off but by now he was used to that, he covered himself with a thick blanket and continued to watch the television. His floor was dirty, yet he didn't care to sweep it. He sighed and began to fiddle around with the corner of the blanket, waiting to see which horse would outrun the other. He began to long for that excitement himself, yet it was quickly swept away due to him reminding himself that it was unrealistic.

After the show went off he went upstairs, sitting down and thinking about how the horse he rooted for didn't win, he began to overthink about it before snapping out of it and going to bed.