User blog comment:Sealz888/soon./@comment-26894590-20160810154204

I will never forget this place.

I wanted to be.. great.

I wanted to be.. the best.

I wanted somebody to care, someone to notice.

I made a few friends.

I got a few comments.

I wanted..

care?

no.

I wanted..

love?

no.

I wanted to.. I wanted..

I only ever wanted someone to..

what am I saying?

i'm not 15, for sure.

I'm a 10 year old.

I'm 10 years old.

I have aspergers.

And my life is terrible.

I have thought of hurting and killing myself, yes.

I'm depressed, and I have anxiety.

I have three friends that I'm drifting away from.

And now my home for two years..

is dying.

I just wanted to be cared for and loved and cherished.

I only ever wanted someone to say..

"Hey, this is great, I absolutely love this! Keep it up!"

And I got that. Maybe.. three, two times?

maybe more.

you know

i'm just a whiny brat

who's hormones were boosted by the melotonine her mother gave her

for two years

to help her sleep.

so now i'm a 10 year old girl, who's depressed, doesn't have any friends, has her face buried in a computer to avoid everyone, and i'm going through puberty.

that's a lot to handle

...

am i just emotional?

probably

just

a bratty 10 year old

who wants attention

and

and is writing all sad

yeah..

my dad is in jail

my brother's account is fake

i tried to make myself the perfect me

and it just..

collapsed

everything i tried to build up

...

my life kind of sucks

i'm kind of happy

i kind of have friends

but i have so much left, right?

...

i think it's just the puberty thing.

i'm just stressed out, man.