User blog:Clemont is a seal/Please read....

Now I've been wanted to make this blog a while ago on the 10th (9th in merica or Poland).

Also, if you don't like being concerned about others mental health, state of mind, wellbeing or how they look at them selves please to read something

Alright, The reason why I made this is because I feel like i've been wearing a mask even since I joined this wiki, my true self is a cynical, weird, stressed, anxious, pessimistic, introverted loner. (Yes you read that correctly I'm a loner.) I acted happy, optimistic, extroverted person without a care in the world.

I was a pre-mature child, I heart wasn't developed corrected in the bottom chamber which meant in my early years I didn't do anytype of physical sport because of this, when I was six I got a vavle but I never physical sport (running, football rugby(football), gymnastics or basketball.) For our cross-country I would always walk. (Which I still do BC our courses 5 km long.)

I remember the day where I started to lose confidence I was in my starting year of school, It was recess and I was on the monkey bars since not being able to do sport, I was on the monkey bars and I nearly had made it over, everyone was cheering me on I wasn't strong enough to get over the third one so I had fell, the cheering facing to laughter from everyone... I was the odd child out beside another kid which I don't want to speak of their name so let's call him J. He had a mental disorders (possibly autism form his behaviour, I don't know what he had.) We where the best of friends.

I had break for the next two years of school from the torment. But I was bullied by these group of kids let's the group footy, it had 5 members but let's callem, lil,Matthew, C, flinch and KJ. They had bullied me for the next few years and continue to do so to this very day. I told the teachers but it never felt like they did nothing. The same year My best friend J left to go to Sydney but I have an angel I still have to this very day, I had other friends that left the year too, One called L again she was an odd one kid like me and J my relation as in friends where very strong and I was heart broken.

Another notable thing is that I was betrayed by my best friend let's call S and how she betrayed me is that I had asked to leave me alone for one lunch and she keep on harrassing me until the 7th time I had snapped and snarled at her to leave me alone. She ran away crying and told everyone that I was mean and etc so nobody hung out with me. That when I was a popular kid ranking started to fall. I had still had one friend L, and I made a new one let's call him RJ. When I moved on I was put in a composite class. I was 11 at the time. When that year started, L left and I was left with RJ. I had given him a whole box of loom bands (the were bands you used to make bracelets with. But that was on the light hearted side, The teacher I had was MR L he gave my sister and I hard time. I remember coming home crying, later on in that wear I was going through a phase of sucidal thoughts. Heck I even asked my friend what would be the most quickest and least painful way to die was! The year soon passed and the next year was a short break... RJ and my friendship fell apart, we were being shipped and no matter how many time I told the teachers, they kept on doing it and their was the crude joke with is a bit graphic so if you want PM me on AJ amino. I'm Sealz888.  (My user maybe mickee mous at the time but you'll see my sealz888 in brackets!) This was the point where all my friends where stolen, vile words where being thrown around and this is where my sports ability was battered and heated to the point where I just gave up on nearly every sport. And at the end is where I was starting to review hate and I can go on in detail so I'll just make a list. G*is confused as heck about the ordeal and has no hecking idea what the hecking heck the little hecking Beckers are hecking talking about. It Is explained and crap.
 * Posts opion on Google classrooms and devices hate for no good reason!
 * Post blog on this site about the guy.
 * Guy soon finds out bout that blog and literally everyone of his friends harrase me


 * This will be important* while I was in my composite class I met a girl, let's call her IM and she had a friend whos name also started with so let's call her IA. IM and IA became really close friends and I in the next of that class I became friends with a few girls called AM, A, and JH. Remember RJ I had feelings for him. Which was my biggest mistake telling  AM. She told everybody but she left the school.

They where also slowly stolen soon taking me back to square one. (A few years back which I like to call "A dawn of a new girl." Now since the age my personality flipped, I became introverted and a loner.)

A few weeks later I accidentally deleted my Gmail account and I decided to make my new account Secret Seal Society. Which IM's name was Secret Society. The next day she was butthurt about it and I was chased by here new friends. That group has RJ in it. My mind sensed betrayal and I just stopped caring about him.

I made a list of the other events that had followed to save you reading a heck of a lot more words


 * Posted a video that I got while on the way back home, it was a 5 yr old in the front seat hanging out the front seat, hanging out the window stating that it was illegal (I was a moronic kid at the time.) And That starting the fire.

(Tbh I never actually gave any flying tricks about it. It never really affected me.)
 * Receives hate and again is complete moron by posting a rant which is worse.
 * Gets a slowed down mock video for like 5 seconds in the beginning.
 * Accidentally is racist because the same guy who helped are me for opion is an Asian and his name was clorox bleach and so I said.
 * I said kys (kill yourself and I didn't say it to you so please do not be mad at me.) To someone at my school.

Then I went on my school camp, and a girl called A At the start of the year O told her who I liked was rj. She told everyone and someone told me that rj jist wanted to friends.

Then it was the school holidays. At this point I stopped goving a hecking damn about my grades. I scuked at math, I was ok with english (writing stories, Grammar and punctuation etc) I hated sport and P.E, art was just pasting and painting stuff. I hated our electives. My ideas where shoot down and our extra subjects are a bore.

Now this year I RJ had offically backstabbed me and told my to go get depressed, called me a 'feminazi' and told me with passion to kill myself. I didn't care at this point life wasn't worth my time, I wanted to go to my utopia permanently... I helped at the library asking to have a break because of bulling. The librarian asked me what was wrong I told her that someone told me to kill myself. I was sent over to the head teachers room and showed him the comment and the that it was rj.


 * My teacher and the head teacher of my grade and rj sat down at a table to talk.
 * The police and the childrens lifeline had a talk to us.
 * The headmaster and head teacher of my grade had a talk with us and rj I also got an apology letter from rj which i'm suspicious that the teachers wrote

The other students that were involved had graduated but I don't know what happened.

Other things I would like to mention: I had to various mental tests done from what rj did. I didn't trust most of the teachers I stopped involving in activity which are social (I occasionally  do join in but I feel weird when I do it) My ability to speak clearly in front of people on the spot went downhill. I stopped caring for anybody at the school. I hated group projects. I had this friend we will call K I knew her for a long time but she moved when Mr L started, I stay in touch but she became a person which I started to lose intrest due to her ways of mockery of me. I get hypersensitive when someone stares at me. My self esteem fell to - 10000000000 I don't trust everyone right away

Now you guys know why I force myself to act happy go lucky all the time.... I learnt it the hard way to act this way... please forgive me for this...