Thread:Safetystoryluv/@comment-39615662-20190919231339/@comment-39615662-20190928200827

you're not annoying. i hate when people call themselves things that they're not, just so other people can think that the other person has low self-esteem. in reality, not everyone has low confidence and thinks badly about themselves.

i'm sorry i just replied with 'eh' and not something like 'no, you're not annoying.' i wasn't thinking properly and yesterday i had a horrific event happen to me which awokened me and made me more aware of everyone around me. before, it was just like everyone was just there, doing their own thing, and i didn't need to intervene. i probably don't need to intervene, but now i just can't control myself in real life scenarios and i need to speak my mind.

not my heart, my mind. if i spoke my heart, everyone i know in real life would be interacting with the real me. i wouldn't be upbeat, clever kara. i would be silent, introverted kara. but i'm not an introvert or an extrovert, just an ambivert. my personality type is ENTP- the Visionary. It's considered one of the rarest personality types, and I have to agree on that part. I'm not the type of person you come across everyday. I'm not saying I'm unique- I'm just saying I don't fit in.

But, you know, being an ENTP has its perks, ya know? I'm considered the type of person people can't really fall in love with, but still get along with me. if i changed my personality to be like, say, my best friends who are an ENFJ (The Giver) and ESFJ (The Provider) then I could've been popular, in some alternate world.

but life sucks, and that's how it's always gonna be.

i'm sorry that i'm just rambling on and on and on, i just suddenly felt so bad for replying so bluntly and coldly to you. sorry.