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A long blog deserves a long answer:

The internet is a place where you can create a new persona. You can be a totally new person, give birth to someone you’ve always wanted to be. You don’t have to be who you really are, you can wear a mask over that- and honestly, I won’t judge anyone for doing that. I myself wear a ‘mask’ more often than not to appear as someone I’d rather be. In real life, as also on the internet.

I won’t judge you if you’re cynical, weird, stressed, anxious and introverted- I myself hold half of these traits. Everyone has a different personality. Being yourself is in no way wrong- as hard as it might be to accept.

And I can’t exactly relate to your pre-maturity. But I do hope the future will plan out a larger and better path for you than your past has.

People who laugh at you because you aren’t able to do something due to physical difficulties/sicknesses/disorders (like your pre-maturity which didn’t let you do plenty of things, resulting in things such as the monkey bar incident) aren’t worth acknowledging. Humans who won’t try to help or be a part of your life shouldn’t have such an influence on it. But since life’s not fair, they do influence you. And that’s completely understandable, and by all means, human. Becoming anxious and closed off after not being ‘accepted’ is completely understandable- a lot of people would agree. A lot of people are going through the same thing. I’m glad at least during some time (even if it was short) you had J. It’s good to have at least one good friend.

Being lonely throughout your youth isn’t a good thing to have to go through. I’m really sorry for all that’s happened to you regarding your friends. I’ve had my own little, I don’t know what to call it, ‘Self-to-self conversation’ about my friendships and my troubles in general, that helped me quite a lot.

Regarding the hate- what you posted was available for everyone to see. No matter if you’d get hate right when you’d post a blog/video/work, a week later, or maybe a month later, it would always come. It was unavoidable. Hate is a hard thing to discuss since people have different reactions to it, so I’ll drop this topic here.

So, I guess the whole point of this was to say, that, for being who you are, I won’t judge you. You aren’t any less human than anyone else. I’m not a psychiatrist, I can't give you actual feedback or advice. But I do hope that if I say ‘I love, respect and adore you as a human being’, you’ll trust my word for it.

I really hope things get better for you.

If you do start feeling even worse, trust my word for it, it would do good to talk about these things with your parents or someone who dedicates their life to help people get out of hard times like these.

I genuinely hope you have a good day.

(Hopefully I didn’t fail with this message. If I did, I’m sorry. I’ll bake you the best cheesecake you’ve ever eaten and send it to you with a hug.)