Board Thread:A REALLY BIG ANNOUCEMENT/@comment-31986068-20170501033628

I have to apologize for my inactivity.

I have been preoccupied with the AJW and I have recently become a chatmod there. I only went to visit it to get away from this place due to my very selfish disgust with the general community vibe, which I loved so much more when it felt actually comfortable. I was sickened by the reappearance of horribly ancient memes and that dreadful thing you call "derpiness" or some trash like that.

But I went on chat and suddenly became absorbed and almost intoxicated with the joy of actually finding people that are like me. I was gone a while and even though the community is general trash, I loved to find someone that was as cynical and annoyed as I am in a kind of wearily positive community.

I came to the recent wiki activity a day ago to check on the wiki. I was instantly exasperated by an edit by an ADMIN adding "general stories" to a page when I had begged and begged for everyone to leave those categories alone for gosh sake.

Then I saw a comment on a story. A story that I had not bothered to read through much. I tried to read through the story and gave up due to its very infuriating repetitive wording of every other sentence. I couldn't even enjoy the decent plot because of this.

I saw the comment count. Seventy something.

I saw the recent comment. Broke down crying.

Crying because I didn't understand how it got so many comments with the very distracting and poor wording of the sentences. Crying because I tried so hard to put effort into my stories which always get little to no attention whatsoever. Crying because what's the point in weaving tales when everyone would rather read a different story, a story that my selfish, blind, crying eyes can only ever see as one giant grammar mistake. Crying because nobody cares about Eiravana. Code Red. Love Love Love. Beautiful Times, because really I only have all those comments because it's an add your oc story.

Crying because I felt like a horrible person for thinking these selfish, mean things and I can't even have enough self esteem to continue my stories without encouragement.

I'm sorry for being harsh. I needed to vent somewhere.

I'll try to be active. For you guys. 