Thread:Safetystoryluv/@comment-39615662-20190919231339/@comment-43836919-20190929094220

Wow

Poured your heart out there..... wow

I don't actually do it as an insult, I'm just generally annoying to myself and most other people. Like, I don't really have stuff to say or I come up with something cool and I just blurt it. I could say anything which honestly makes me... not good in most things.

It has always seemed so, anyway. Because of that, a lot of people get angry at it and think I'm annoying or there's something wrong with me, even my friends sometimes even though they put it in a joke.

It never affected me. I never actually cared, I just knew it was there. Because I've been told that my whole life, I tend to do the same thing and correct myself with a 'sorry I'm being annoying' and something to tune it up, like a face or something.

It's an insinct, not a disease or something. I mean, I just do it. Sometimes I tell my siblings because they're used to it and they can help most times. When it gets extreme where I have to say something so badly, I write in my journal, my only source of sanity.

Now you're going to think I'm crazy and have some kind of a disease that needs to be fixed. But I'm not. I'm seriously fine, just sometimes I need to get things out and that's the only way.

Not many people know the true reason, mainly because they're afraid to ask or something. But nobody except my close friend, the one I'm not suspecting is fake, and my immediate family. I think some of my relatives, but not all.

This isn't all the time, but it's not rare. Like right now, I thought about something for a game. I didn't need to let that out, but if I decide I do, even in unrelated conversations, I'll probably bring it up. Sometimes, I get annoying enough that I interrupt people.

I feel so much better now. I'm sorry for wasting your time, but I've always described myself as that so at this point, it's a joke, something to be funny, natural.